Resolution #4: Real self-confidence
I am shy. I thought that was a thing by itself. But it turns out my shyness is just a symptom of low self-confidence. There were other symptoms too, but most people don’t notice. They don’t notice because I learned when I was young that it was not manly to feel the way I feel. So I try to hide my doubts, and I’m pretty good at it. But I can’t hide them from myself. So I feel uncomfortable a lot. And I spend too much time and energy dealing with these feelings. But this year I’m working on real self-confidence. I’ve lived so long without it, I can’t imagine what it would feel like to have it. But I’m looking forward to finding out.
wonderful execution of your resolution…really evocative and thoughtful.
Comment by kelly — January 23, 2007 @ 5:31 pm
I think many people suffer from low self-confidence and esteem and are scared to admit it. I also have developed techniques for hiding it. Don’t you think it’s amazing to find someone you don’t have to hide it from? And that makes you feel ever more confident and loved? I do…
Comment by Sarah — August 19, 2007 @ 10:42 am